Hemingway attempted suicide in the spring of 1961, and received ECT treatment again. On the morning of July 2, 1961, some three weeks short of his 62nd birthday, he died at his home in Ketchum, Idaho, the result of a self-inflicted shotgun wound to the head. Judged not mentally responsible for his final act, he was buried in a Roman Catholic service. Hemingway himself blamed the ECT treatments for “putting him out of business” by destroying his memory; some medical and scholarly opinion has been receptive to this view, although others, including one of the physicians who prescribed the electroshock regimen, dispute that opinion
What’s your problem? You can’t remember certain things? I’m thinking that you remembered how to order a gun and did it in such a way that nobody was aware. But I’m sure they zapped a few things. Maybe you were having trouble figuring out why you were so great. Maybe you couldn’t quite come up with all those inspirational quotes that made your writing so unforgettable.
Too bad. But maybe you were depressed too. Because you had been feeding yourself a depressant in such large dosages for so long.
Maybe you didn’t want to change. Change is scary. But you were never scared. Right? Let’s make sure everybody understands that last one. Point the gun at yourself and pull the trigger.
Oh wait. Didn’t anybody ever tell you that it is well understood. . . to kill yourself is the way of a coward. So you are a coward. Is that why you couldn’t face life anymore?